WEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!

in less than 12hrs time i am going CHINA!
feel like blogging... but dunnO wat to blog...


finally got the TCC card... thx to my dad for spending $80 and the gathering... :)



sizzle... very expensive! but nice! haha...



fruits are gd for health! :)



tall, medium... =x i didnt say anything!!!



star star!!! :) long lasting friendship!



SMILE!



CO! the duat performance!



wonderful salad @ waraku wif mum!



jap ice lemon tea? think again...



haha



nice!

finally feeling so much better!

tis mornin call up the MINDEF, the new admin officer, mdm Charana was such a help! she make clear so much stuffs... unlike the !@#$#%~#!$ chinese admin officer... "juz email will do!"

feeling so much better... and so bored... i decided to take pics of my room.... actually... my room is nt tat bad after all...


beloved chair...



my laptop!



tigger... and a lamp... gifts frm someone(s)...



so cute rite?



some snack i bought... wanted to try... juz to find its expired... :(



i do train okie...



random photo of desktop..




love my cam phone... doesnt need photoshop to edit the pic :)

MINDEF admin ppl are such a !@#$#%@$%!


ask me nicely to send an email to them...
call up my teacher behind my back and say i did wrongly...


i am in bitching mood now... tat person better pray tml on leave... i HATE BACKSTABBERS!

I AM BACK TO BLOGGING!


haha... after 1 week and 2 days MIA frm blogging, my guilt starts kicking in... :P juz kidding... had been very busy with alot of offline stuffs...

lets start frm CTPC, which stands for... (look below)



haha... it wasnt as fun as my senior said... nevertheless, i enjoy myself alot... so much fun laughter and joy... tis stage of my life is certainly great...

let me introduce u to my companion for the past 6 weeks...
my jurong island entry pass :)



as lack of food was a SERIOUS issue around... for tat PAST 6 weeks, i have become aunty aw.... shopping @ the aunty favourite NTUC! all my lunch are bought frm there, and my fav is nissin cup noodles... :)



our last nite shift work... the guys are slacking away... wahahahaha... troubleshooting is such a headache cum pimple creator...



ya.... tats me cam whoring in order to stay awake... its nt easy to stay awake in a offshore island with no computer/tv



after 6 weeks... it finally ended wif a grad ceremony... :)
presenting to u, my 3 best pals @ sch... always fill my boring sch life wif joy and laughter.. :)
frm bottom left to rite,

~yi xiang... the english teacher... editor of our team! (suspect whether she is amoh in disguise) :)
~amber... the techno nanny... very gd in researching and taking care of the other two gals... (its nt tat i am lao ticko or wat la...)
~meiyan... the pistachio nuts (chinese call kai xin guo)... very positive and damn hardworking... when we met an obstacle, she will get us though!



haha... the next two is limin and donna... always like to gi siao and make fun of each other... first impression of them is tat they really dao... coz they like so clever... after working together for a few projects... it seem tat i can go crazy wif them... LOL!




enuf talking bout my training...

had a outing right after the grad ceremony... wif a fren tat i knew for a long time... more than 1yr? and another who i noe for 3yrs le... (times sure flys...)

had lunch @ suntec convention hall... porridge buffet @ $9.80, serving 3 kinds porridge and alot of different condiments and side dishs to go wif... damn nice la! and i forget to take pic =x

after which, we went shopping then settle @ my fav TCC outlet...

its the first time entering wif them and first time ordering something different than wat i usually ordered... maybe i shld stop hesitating and start trying new stuffs... something my fren has been always trying to psycho me... and never work till now... =x


yesterday went out wif my best frenz frm sec sch! realise tat its a long time since i catch up wif them le... =x had dinner @ chomp chomp after tat, unexpectedly, finding a awfully chocolate outlet near by and bought my fav awfully chocolate ICECREAM! :) i am SO SO SO SO HAPPY! cant help feeling ECSTATIC!

hmmmmm... let me introduce u to a gal wif same birthday as me... juz younger by 2 hrs...
miss lee siying! she is my best fren frm sec sch... very positive on the outside, negative on the inside... (so alike)
she har... @!^#$%%$@ (be glad i didnt say it out!)
wahahahaha.. very funny and outgoing frenz of mine! NUS, urall better take her... it will be a lost to ur academy if u forgo is talented nurse to be for someone else...



no offense... i LOVE their swing... :)
look very unglam coz it was initially a outing to chomp chomp, aka smoky outdoor kopitiam...



ooh before i sign off,
weeeeeeeee... an acknowledgment of my performance @ CPTC... only given to 6 ppl out of 127 =x haha... thx for letting me get the award... it wasnt an easy feat, my classmates are very gd! i seriously think tat they got the potential to get tis too!





~2 days....
y am i still thinking...

EFFORT!


everything needs effort! frm frenz to family...
once a lack of effort, distance will increase... before anyone notice, tat distance will be so far so scary... i pick up a very interesting chinese phrase...

不在乎天长地久， 只但愿成经拥有。。。

paiseh, if there is typo... nt gd with chinese words... in short... wat i meant was,
"never to bothered how long it could goes... juz be grateful tat its been once yours..."


one would never be satisfied till he walk over to the other side and realise its actually worst than the current situation... being evil doesnt really equate to being happy...

memories are beautiful... very beautiful...

maybe wat my fren had reprimand me was correct... i dun put in effort to wateva i do... juz take stuffs for granted... being happy go lucky, has its vice and virtue... i couldnt grabs hold of its virtue and to make things worst, i embrace all its vice...


haven been "stable" tis few days... its taking longer than i had expected...

in midst of a rainy afternoon, waiting for time to pass to start my NIGHT SHIFT @ jurong island... it suddenly strike me hard...


what do i really want for my future...

never once did i actually planned for the future, its so far all impromptu... frm events, projects, and even outings... organized is a word that never appeared in my dictionary...

there is always never lacking passion tat could push me through what i am doing... however reality never seem to stand by me... actions that is ruled by heart instead of mind, growing up is never proportional to time for me...


ever changing frenz is sad, yet with a few close frenz beside never fails to light up my day... slowly getting used to be used by ppl, is it what the world is about? using "resources?" each have in their hands...


does the problem lies within me? or the world...

blaming on horoscope seem to be an escape from the stubbornness of unwilling to admit mistake... how can i ever grow up? does being mean really equivalent to be matured? does kindness and giving trust to others considered as an exclusive privilege for children?


sometimes... i rather nt admit i am matured... coz it juz simply reflects on how childish i am... maybe i am...

ARE WE THE SAME?

DID U...

-grew up watching He-man, Captain planet, Transformers, Silver Hawk and Mickey Mouse, Ninja turtles, Carebears, Robocop?

-grew up brushing your teeth with a mug in Primary school during recess time.

-paid 40 cents for cartons of Chocolate or Strawberry milk every week in class?

-used velcro type wallet?

-take SBS buses tat is non-air conditioned. The bus seats are made of wood and the cushion were red. The big red bell gave a loud BEEP! when pressed?

-take bus when there were still bus tickets and bus conductors would come up to check them?

-receive envelopes given to donate to Sharity Elephant every Children's Day?

-read Young Generation magazine? knowing who's Vinny the little vampire and Acai the constable?

-know what PETS are and the hidden animals in all the text pages? hated penmanship?

-often write lines and canned by rulers on palm? esp if you failed spelling/talk in class?

-went for the first ride when MRT was first introduced, with your parents and you would kneel on the seat to see the scenery?

-rmb movie tickets used to cost only $3.50?

-learned to laugh like The Count in Sesame Street.

-bought tidbits called beebee (20 cents per pack, 10 cents in MGS), and mamee (30 cents), that had a different sticker in it every time.

-watched TV2 (also known as Channel 10) cartoons because Channel 5 never had enough cartoons for you?

-thought tat Hardy Boys, Nancy Drew, The Three Investigators, Famous Five and Secret Seven were probably the thickest story books you thought you would ever read?

-realized that the most vulgar thing you said was asshole and idiot and THE MOST EXTREME WAS 'chicken pie'...you just couldn't bring yourself to say the hokkien translation?

-thought tat Catching and pepsi-cola was the IN thing, and twist was the magic word?

-used english workbooks were made of some damn poor quality paper that was smooth and yellow?

-came to school 15 mins before the bell every morning just so you could copy someone's homework?

-attended computer lessons in school involved funny pixellized characters in 16 colours walking about trying to teach you math?

-used waterbottles were slung around your neck and a must everywhere you went?

-loved to play soccer with small stones or ping pong balls in the basketball court?

-thought that Science was fun with the Balsam and the Angsana being the most important plants of our lives, guppies and swordtail being the most important fishes?

-rmb Ahmad, Bala, Sumei and John, immortalized in our minds from school textbooks?

-conducted experiments of our own to get badges for being a Young Zoologist/Botanist etc?

-receive on every Children's day and National day, either got pins or pens with 'Happy Children's Day 1993' or useless plastic files with 'Happy National Day 1994'?

-wore BM2000, BATA, or Pallas shoes?

-realized tat form teacher taught you Maths, Science and English?

-went to school in slippers and a raincoat when it rained, and you find a dry spot in the school to sit down, dry your feet, and wear your dry and warm socks and shoes?

-hated the spelling tests and mental sums to do almost everyday?

-loved it when friends considered you lucky and rich if your parents gave you $2 or more for pocket mone everyday?

-saw Wee Kim Wee's face in the school hall/general office?

-liked catching fighting spiders, earthworms or tadpoles?

-Collected and battling erasers?

-encountered Class monitors and prefects who just loved to say, "You talk somemore, I write your name ah!"

-attended classes with at least 40 people?

-brought every single book to school, even though there was a timetable?

-played/owned a pro-yo/bumblebee, digimon at some point in time?


well... @ the end of the day, dun u feel so nostalgic, and feel so sad to say, THOSE WERE THE DAYS... seriously... i MISSED MY CHILDHOOD, AND ALOT OF MY FRENZ... who once/currently step into my life...

early mornin sunrise i used to watch every mornin on way to training/work



in case u cant really see, the purple one is bliss chocolate... (got the meaning?) haha

another 5 more hrs before i will rush to catch tat bus...
cant seem to sleep... so decided to blog...


recently addicted to mariah carey songs... all thx to who?
haha... still... thx la! (doubt u will be reading tis...)


anyway... tis song juz stuck me so hard to my face... and its juz getting me emo again...
arG! y does it always happen @ the wrong period... haiz... hope my stupid emo is able to end tml... for now... (DO NT DISTURB)





"I Stay In Love"

Oh baby
Baby, I stay in love with you

Dying inside cause I can't stand it
Make or break up
Can't take this madness
We don't even really know why
All I know is baby
I try and try so hard
To keep our love alive

If you dont' know me at this point
Then I highly doubt you ever will
I really need you to give me
That unconditional love I used to feel
It's no mistaking
We're just erasing
From our hearts and minds

And I know we said let go
But I kept on hanging on
Inside I know it's over
You're really gone
It's killing me
Cause there ain't nothing
That I can do
Baby, I stay in love with you

And I keep on telling myself
That you'll come back around
And I try to front like "Oh well"
Each time you let me down
See I can't get over you now
No matter what I do
But baby, baby
I stay in love with you

Na na na na na na na na na
Na na na na na na na na na
Na na na na na na na na na
Baby, I stay in love with you

It cuts so deep
It hurts down to my soul
My friends tell me
I ain't the same no more
We still need each other
When we stumble and fall
How we gon' act
Like what we had
Ain't nothin' at all now

Hey, what I wanna do is
Ride shotgun next to you
With the top down like we used to
Hit the block
Proud in the SUV
We both know our heart is breaking
Can we learn from our mistakes
I can't last one moment alone
Now go I know

We said let go
But I kept on hanging on
Inside I know it's over
You're really gone
It's killing me
Cause there ain't nothing
That I can do
Baby, I stay in love with you

And I keep on telling myself
That you'll come back around
And I try to front like "Oh well"
Each time you let me down
See I can't get over you
Now no matter what I do
Baby, baby
I stay in love with you

We said let go
But I kept on hanging on
Inside I know it's over
You're really gone
It's killing me
Cause there ain't nothing
That I can do
Baby, I stay in love with you

And I keep on telling myself
That you'll come back around
And I try to front like "Oh well"
Each time you let me down
See I can't get over you
Now no matter what I do
But baby, baby
I stay in love with you

I stay in love
Love
Oh, I stay in love.

OKIE! I ADMIT!


tis entry is a long long overdue... cant help it la... waking up @ 4~430am every mornin... notice, its 4am to 430am instead of the usual 4am... dunno y but juz cant seem to wake up on time for the past week... resulting in alot of exercising with the bus driver frowning at it... *to those who cant get it... is juz me trying to catch the bus, no! nt literally la!*


haha... been a fun fun week... had a wet firefighting on wed... never been so wet in a coverall before... and its the first time i bath on top of a make shift shower... its so =.= haha... dun wanna elaborate further... had started to talking with ppl from my group... after 4 weeks? left 2 days before we go separate journey till sept... haha... so ironic... still... i cant seem to input into my mind first impression dun last... wahahaha...

me in firefighting suit :D with hafiz? (sorry for wrong spelling =x)




ooh... my china visa is so cock up now... without visa = no confirm flight date = no china internship!!! ARG!!! so sianz... i dun wanna stuck in sch!!! NO NO NO!


anyway... i sometime hate my six sense la... never wrong de... sianz... if only it can juz go haywire in some area of my life... nt studies of course... my six sense plays an impt role in my studies... :P never fail me... wat i study will sure come out... keke...


its mothers day today!!! :D

best wishes to all mothers, and to-be mothers... its nt easy to bring and lead a new life into this cold world... i give u all my admiration! :)

my mom promoting the dunno wat pork.. hahaz



my beloved grandmother... she is the one tat first bring me to a place call wet market.. hahaz... so nostalgic



making weird expression wif my mum... *pray she dun see tis here*
haha

was chatting wif a new fren yesterday bout some stuffs... then it suddenly hit me... how long has it been?


time flies.. definitely, especially once u get pass 16, the years of 17,18,19 juz zoom past... i cant really say my life is mundane during tis few yrs... there are extreme ups and downs... unbelieveable but true... everything seem to happen juz yesterday... each single mistake, each mesmerizing moment, each drama scene... everything seem so crystal clear...

grown up? maybe? *okie... i nOe the gals in my class read tis sure dun believe... haha* but... yea... all tis "experiences" i encounter, made me realise tat i am old le... changed? might be a better word to use then? the innocent (i WAS innocent before k?) and simple guy was no longer innocent...


i hate myself for being very sensitive... though it had its pros of, noticing events happening around me without a second thought, hints given by teachers... still the cons of, when ppl wanna give me surprise juz flop make me so hate myself for being sensitive...

the weirdest thing is that even though my brain is sensitive to my surrounding, my mouth isnt anything close to sensitive... i cant seem to sweet talk, talk in considering for others... my mouth juz operate as a separate entity frm my body...


okie... seriously... i have no idea y am i blabbing so early on sun mornin...
juz my PERIOD! haha... it will get over very very quickly...

*i hope*

MESS UP!


yea... my room is pretty mess up right now... coz i relocating my furniture... :)
cant wait for the new look! but still, as usual... half way packing thought my stuffs, i am slacking! feeling lazy... :P
its juz another habit of a typical spoilt brat which i inculcate over the years...


as i pack my stuffs (including throwing away stuffs) i realise how unbalance my life was... sec sch life style was plain jane peter, nth much... study, gaming, graduate... poly life in first two years was a to-to bullet train ride... rock climbing, photography, debates, research work, chinese orchestra *note, how drastic my interest change within 2 yrs* well... tats a typical Aquarius :P


time sure flys... before i knew it... last yr in poly!!! T.T last yr i am in my teens!!! and last yr of freedom before trap in a two yrs camp... shld i make tis yr STUNNING? haha... still considering =x


SG flyer... wonder when its my turn... to get a spin of my lifetime...



construction vs constructed... hmmmm