it feels weird..


believe it or nt... it seriously feels weird after living in a foreign land for 2mths and reach home again... kinda miss my roommate... haha... his crazy laughter and giggle had help me alot during my trip... really gotta thx him! ooh... thx for unclogging my laughter pipe! HAHA!


some how a a weird emotion strikes me... and it reminds me of one of my all time fav, a damn old song by Mobile by Avril Lavigne,

"Went back home again
This sucks gotta pack up and leave again
Say goodbye to all my friends
Can't say when I'll be there again
It's time now to turn around
Turn my back on everything
Turn my back on everything...

Everything's changing when I turn around
All out of my control, I'm a mobile
Everything's changing everywhere I go
Out of what I know, I'm a mobile
ohh, yeah

Start back at this life
Stretch myself back into the vibe
I'm waking up to say I've tried
Instead of waking up to another fuckin' T.V. Guide
It's time now to turn around
Turn and walk on this crazy ground
Oh, oh

Everything's changing when I turn around
All out of my control, I'm a mobile
Everything's changing everywhere I go
Out of what I know, I'm a mobile

Yeah, everywhere I go I'm a mobile.."



wanted to post a pic post today... however suddenly juz doesnt have the feel... ahaha... weird arent i? well... maybe tml or the day after... mean time... coz tis stupid nice fren of mine suddenly ask me to find for her a colorgenics website... after found tat website, i tried it out again... and the results is ever so true...



"You are constantly hoping that your good fellowship and attitude and your 'love for your fellow man (or women)' will give you peace of mind. You need people - people around you to care for you and to show you that they care. It is this hope that keeps you going, the hope that makes you the type of person that indeed you are. Your own need for approval seemingly makes you always ready to help others and in exchange you seek love, warmth and understanding. You will always listen to others and you are open to new ideas which hopefully will prove fruitful and interesting.

You are finding the present situation extremely demanding and you're having difficulty coping with it. A great deal of strain is involved and you would really like everyone and everything to leave you alone for a while, just so that you can put everything into perspective.

At times all of us would like to be like the ostrich - to be able to bury our heads in the sand and let the rest of the world go by, but unfortunately you can't do just that - you have to face up to reality. A little peace and quiet would be most acceptable at this time but if only one could turn a blind eye to the problems of the day! Tomorrow is another day and who knows, it could be 'today' (not tomorrow) that could be the first day of the rest of your life!

Whatever you strive to do, something always seems to be holding you back. There is no subterfuge in you. You are a clear thinker and all you demand from life, in a relationship, is a partner whom you can trust and with whom you can, together, develop a foundation of trust based on understanding. You are your own person and you demand freedom of thought to follow your own convictions. You have no interest in 'two-timing' and all you seek is sincerity and 'straight-dealing'.

You are anxious about all the limitations to which you are subjected to at this time. You feel that you are not valued for what or who you are. You need OUT. So why procrastinate any longer - MOVE!

from : http://www.paulgoldinresearch.com/cg/"


been thinking bout the same thing before i done tis "test" long time back... shld i really do wat i wanna do? its hard to choose... doubt anyone can understand... haha...

kkz... off to emo again... cya!!!

juz in another 5 more days?

haha...

load happen over the weekends...
in short, was invited to two company dinners, first is wif my work place ppl and the next with the CEO of company aka my company supervisor... both is damn nice! and damn exp too!!!


dun think could update blog anytime sooner... kinda busy...
ooh... i dun like china zoo... the animal seem to be in captive :(

Some jokes i got frm some random website!
hope to keep the laughter around! :)

Rules of the lab

1. If an experiment works, something has gone wrong.
2. When you don't know what you're doing, do it neatly.
3. Experiments must be reproduceable, they should fail the same way each time.
4. First draw your curves, then plot your data.
5. Experience is directly proportional to equipment ruined.
6. Always keep a record of your data. It indicates that you have been working.
7. To do a lab really well, have your report done well in advance.
8. If you can't get the answer in the usual manner, start at the answer and derive the question.
9. In case of doubt, make it sound convincing.
10. Do not believe in miracles--rely on them.
11. Team work is essential, it allows you to blame someone else.
12. All unmarked beakers contain fast-acting, extremely toxic poisons.
13. No experiment is a complete failure. At least it can serve as a negative example.
14. Any delicate and expensive piece of glassware will break before any use can be made of it.

There are 10 kinds of people in the world. Those who understand binary, and those who don't.

HAHA!


well... apart frm the "lol" and "haha" on my sms and msn, i rarely do laugh out loud... apparently it juz got trap inside me like a clog pipe... and today the pipe is so clog up tat it burst... yup! it burst... thx to my roommate...

hmmmm... the story goes that we were talking and joking bout our hotel cleaning staff... then suddenly, the pipe tat deliver my laugher burst!! and i started laughing... and laughing... and laughing... for whole 30 mins non stop... @ the end i couldnt take the stress anymore and went outside the room to calm myself... my jaw and stomach is so so so painful la!!! it took me another 30 min to calm down, coz whenever i enter the room, i burst out laughing AGAIN! for few times... (thx god today half of the company ppl is on leave... so i saved myself the embarrassment of laughing so hysterically)


tis taught me something... i cannot resist laughing anymore... the more i resist, the more worst the end result is... till now... my stomach is still aching la... felt so stupid... but its surely fun... somehow... i still dun get it y i suddenly laugh like a mad man for whole 1hr... (maybe the company insert laughing gas into the room..) LOL!


11 more days... the choosing is most likely chosen, decision is most likely decided... yet... some part of me still resist... haha... change readiness VS change redundant?

was blog hopping early mornin... yup! early mornin!


somethings strikes me while reading... and i finally found an answer to one of the three main questions i been bombarding myself with for the past 1mth? haha.. wat is written is quite true.. haha... guess tat person didnt realise he HELP alot of ppl? :P cant really talk bout tat much now... maybe after i get tat freaking grad cert and if i do rmb... will post it bahx.. LOL! 1yr of waiting...


talking bout waiting... its funny how waiting is a painful stuffs, nt talking bout wat... juz an analogy... waiting for ppl @ places, waiting for ppl to be free and go out wif you, waiting for ppl to say "hi" when u wanted to say but too afraid to say... some waiting are worth, while most are not... i couldnt really grabs the concept of time never turns back, it only goes forward... only kinda understand the surface of the theory during my trip... realise i had been waiting for alot of impossible stuffs... waiting for stuffs to drop down from the sky... waiting for...


anyways... guess... its seriously time i do something to myself... innocent is a virtue, naive is a vice... such thin line separates the two ideology...

haha... been a fun sat! tiring... but nice!!! spent quite alot =x


ooh... i suddenly felt i am so contradicting myself... haha... need to sort myself out! pics will be post soon :P

weekend is here again!


y isit the only think i could look forward to every week is only the weekends?? and tat particular date... haha...


short post... for a shortie like me

haha... been a slacky day... @ wOrk and @ home... did practically nth much... watch alot of youtube and re-watched the SG movie Just Follow Law... the second time watching sometimes bring in new ideas? haha... dunno y after re-watching some movie tat i store in com to get rid of slacky days will give me new ideas? haha... maybe tat wat ppl say experiences makes ppl grow up...


felt like i grown up... mindset... hmmmm... finally get y some fren chose some stuffs... shld i also? or maybe i shld try out my way? haha... where could i get wif my stubbornness?? maybe no where is better then somewhere? haha...


another 16 days... did a count down chart... haha... cant wait to get back... yet... once i go back, i gotta choose... 16 days left to choose wat i want... is it enough? if nt when will it ever be consider as enough time? haha...


okie... guess i am giving myself unnecessary stress? guess is better time to go bed! nitex...

weeeeeeeee!!! its 9th july le.. another 17 more days?


hmmmm... its very interesting... but i will seriously miss beijing la... 2 mths... fly past like a rocket =x 2 mths of my life... poof!


i guess i need to get use to frenz nt online to chat like how i get used to living in a strange land... haha... i dunno y i so emo now... its tat stupid jon's com la... play so emo music early mornin... :(


today is gonna be another emo day... haha...


pics @ summer place!!



lake at summer palace!

weeeeeeeee.... went to tian an men (sat) and summer palace (sun) over the weekend!!! :)


took lots of photos, and cam whore major =x but the internet here too laggy la!!! cant upload them... maybe in the next few post or when i reach sg bahx... 20 more days le... so fast!!!


ooh...we saw flag lowering @ tian an men... damn power la! so many ppl watch it! and the flag so cool!! but when we leaving, saw the group of soliders march to rest? they march like... hahaha... maybe its coz they going to rest soon... hahaha... did quite a number of shopping... bought wat i planned out... =)


when we went to summer palace, we actually went with two of our fren company ppl too! its so interesting... didnt realise summer palace is so damn big! walk so long still cant walk finish... cant think bout forbidden city =x
haix... sorry to tx, yl, and k'e ah if urall reading... lol! coz my mood nt really tat gd on sun due to less sleeep and a series of unfortunate events tat arise.. paiseh! =x but i did have alot of fun though... =)


okie okie... time to go mac for breakfast! i am so so late !!!

haha... went to tian an men area today!!!


after searching high and low, we manage to find a place tat is full of singapore stuffs!!! :) and had our first "singaporean" meal there! keke... the food wasnt tat gd... yet it taste fabulous because we didnt had a "singaporean" meal for a damn long time... suddenly feel like eating rojak!!! haha...

we also saw alot of SG shops sellings stuffs!!! spend alot today too!!! yeeeks!!! sianz sianz


ooh...


不能说的秘密。。。

beijing OSIP ppl really got alot of those! haha... *winks*

why does it always stop working at the last moment...


ahhhhhhh.... i dunno...


hope i better wake up from tis deep dreamz and nt pour more of myself deeply in...

What Jayden Aw Zi Hao Means

You are fair, honest, and logical. You are a natural leader, and people respect you. You never give up, and you will succeed... even if it takes you a hundred tries. You are rational enough to see every part of a problem. You are great at giving other people advice. You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection. You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive. You have the classic "Type A" personality. You are a free spirit, and you resent anyone who tries to fence you in. You are unpredictable, adventurous, and always a little surprising. You may miss out by not settling down, but you're too busy having fun to care. You are balanced, orderly, and organized. You like your ducks in a row. You are powerful and competent, especially in the workplace. People can see you as stubborn and headstrong. You definitely have a dominant personality. You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone. You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together. At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together. You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people. You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts. You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals. You are very charming... dangerously so. You have the potential to break a lot of hearts. You know how what you want, how to get it, and that you will get it. You have the power to rule the world. Let's hope you're a benevolent dictator! You are incredibly wise and perceptive. You have a lot of life experience. You are a natural peacemaker, and you are especially good at helping others get along. But keeping the peace in your own life is not easy. You see things very differently, and it's hard to get you to budge. You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing. You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long. You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start. You are truly an original person. You have amazing ideas, and the power to carry them out. Success comes rather easily for you... especially in business and academia. Some people find you to be selfish and a bit overbearing. You're a strong person. You are well rounded, with a complete perspective on life. You are solid and dependable. You are loyal, and people can count on you. At times, you can be a bit too serious. You tend to put too much pressure on yourself.

its me again! haha... these few days are getting more relax :)

23 more days! :)


finally i wasnt bombarded wif all the of pasting sticker... coz we paste all the boxes and excess for the next week! wahahahah... one of the colleague even comment tat we paste damn fast... tats singaporean yea! kaisu ppl! LOL! which is a gd thing too... the in-charge finally allow us to proceed wif our own mini experiment for our major project! phew!


recently feeling down and emo... but today i am so happy? perhaps its coz i finally can do wat i been wanting to do since i started my internship... its so sickening to see other two fren @ the other end of beijing doing their major project related job while we are treated as...


anyways...


recently been addicted to sepia effect when taking pic... its so nice!!! esp at place tat i like to take pic...


i wish, i hope, i pray...



ooh?




haha...

sometimes i really do wonder... why do i think like a kid, surprising nt to studies, but my thinking towards life... i can be so easily persuade to think so Utopian and end up banging against the wall to wake myself up..


saying wat i dun really meant and thinking ever so negative... tats me... even though at times i may sound confident and positive... its just the sudden rush of adrenaline... sick and tired of fitting into the "impressive" haohaoz le... all i want is a quiet bedroom... yet all i got now wif me is juz a cramp cosy hotel bedroom, shared wif another room mate... maybe its also a blessing... away from the busy and stressful singapore gives me time to think wat i really want in life...


hmmmmmm... i seriously have no idea how come i suddenly so emo... maybe its fated... juz like secret, the movie which i dl =x ... juz tat the jumping of space place is kinda impossible... ooh... the secret plot is damn nice... and the actress too, and tats bout all =x


ooh... as much as i wanna bang myself, i cant... is there a kind soul to wake me up from this stupid dreamz? haha... LAO PA!! (if u reading) tat time ur help to wake me is seriously lacking!!! ahhhhhh...