feeling feverish...


slack the whole day... was practically sleeping the whole day away...
1 week left before term test... and i am clueless bout what been happening since sch start... i guess i am in for a CRASH COURSE! (again)


hate tis feeling of feeling so sick... and so helpless bout it...
panadol been my fren and close companion... though i ask my frenz to treat it as enemies... its been my close fren for today... =x


i dun like tis helpless feeling... i really dun... its the last thing i wanna be... helpless... something that others cant really help much in... cause they are either clueless or they haven got a clear picture... aquarius are dense ppl... too dense... ya... i am aquarius... and i am proud of being one :)

I CANT SLEEP!


i nt sure y... i nt sure how...
i know what u did last summer...


crazy thoughts...
weird ideas...


i am juz too slack...
to grip on myself...


thoughts can never be reality...
tats y its called wishful thinking...


spamming weird sentences...
do u noe wat i meant?


making it short and sweet...
as ife is short and treacherous...


tired of typing...
numbing senses...


life is like a stage...
do what u gotta do...


each role has its part...
play it smooth and sweet...


with each ending...
marks beginning...

ah..

it turn one big round and hit me back AGAIN!


its another RAINY day~


the sky is so dark...
the thunder is so loud...
the wind is so strong...
yet the heart is so quiet...


to have excitement... courage is needed...
to have fulfillment... wisdom is needed...
to have love... blindness is required...


omg... rainy weather is starting to evoke the emo side of me yet again...
it never fails... with the complement of some sad songs...


great! its just so great!

i finally found the song i been looking for!!! :)


another sat is coming to an end... and another week short to the end of the yr... my 19th year although was alot more interesting than my 18th year... it wasnt really as exciting... and there werent really much ups and downs...


considered lucky? or boring? its just two different views to a single situation... POSITIVE! something i been telling myself to be... but i juz decided to view it as boring! haha...


ooh... juz change my blog song... if u notice... damn nice can... i am so memorise by it... its not just the tempo and the lyrics... but it kinda remind me of a nice image.. :)


tat very nicely brings me to how the world is so damn small... narrowing to a fine dot in that very small world... u have... nano size!!! (my mum juz got a washing machine with the silver nano technology to replace the faulty one) haha... :)


i miss all my fren.. i really do...


miss those days... :)
(though some are not present)



weeeeeee!!!



miss these days too... early morning... late nights...

wondering what my dream is telling me...


dreamt of climbing up a very tall tower make up of cubes... something like the uno tower... end up very unstable when i reach the top and it topple over... and i started falling... haven got a nightmare for a very long time...


anyways...

christmas is juz 1mth n 6 days away... hopefully i get a memorable christmas tis yr! haha...

shld i?


OSIM! (Oh Shit Its Monday)


another long week lies ahead... starting to like my life.. its getting somewhat sort organize suddenly... time falls smoothly into my time line... :)



was listening to radio... while i chance upon tis very nice song... though its kinda old... but very nice!


its called so what, by pink...




little did i noe... she was once famous with a song... due to the youtube script disable... i could only use the high quality clip from imeem (which is quite laggy) :)





hope u like it :)

BALANCED LIFE?


sound easy? guess not...


drag myself out of the bed tis mornin... wanted to do alot of stuffs... however the slacky me juz kicks in... and i am in front of my com again... GREAT!


the closer i thought i was to my target, the further i landed myself in...
cant believe i cant escape the curse of myopia even in my mental state...


maybe my last teenage christmas present would not appear...
i shld juz stop trying so hard...

its been a while since my last post...


i have no idea why am i giving myself stress.... sometimes i juz hate the way i am...

too slack...


time to train up! :)
exercising will be my fren for the last two months of the year...


will i get what i want for christmas?
i hope :)

haha... its funny how i only start to blog when i turn emo...


was browsing my songs... and clearing my phone... then things juz got so emotional tat i decided to temporary stop working on my sch project and slack here awhile... (okie... haven been working hard on the project so far either =x)

its funny how songs can bring out emotions in me FAST! and i meant real fast... which sometimes give me extreme mood swings too... yea... guys are entitled to mood swings too okie? not juz girls... coz inevitability, we are still HUMAN! dispite the fact that self-psychoing is able to help, there is a limit to the extend it can cover... and its weird how i purposely playing songs tat remind me of sad wonderful memories now... (self induce emo?) i am tired of being so positive... too positive... how i wish i could juz be feeling blue again... how i wish instead of being the positive one, someone else is being positive for me... haha...

i dun wanna grow old... although tough times like indulgence has it limit... how i wish i could stay in comfort forever...


anyways... guess its about time to run my life myself... instead of waiting for ppl to push/pull me along in theirs...

guess...

zi hao aka jayden aka haohaox
is determine to get what he want... haha...


if only it was a gift... haha... i made them myself!!! :)

haha... haven been updating my blog for a long long time =x


nth much to blog about these days... other than i work for a event @ sentosa yesterday and i met alot of nice ppl... who kinda make me broaden up my horizon... life is a learning path tat never stop i suppose...


anyways.. anyone willing to watch high school musical 3 with me?

7am and i am here...


so nice right?



haha... sometimes i really do wonder...


how much of me have left...


too tired to think anymore...


coz its time for sch... see ya!

I AM BACK AGAIN!
我回来了！

yea...

with the end of my major project... its time to start sch again! with the busy schedule.. i can hardly breath... moreover blog... so sorry for the late entries... haha...

anyways... this are the promised photos! :)

my simple final yr project poster!



haiz... always kanna bully by them... but its quite fun! my "project" group if given a choice to choose for the past two yrs.. and we are @ different classes during this final sem... so sad! miss working with them...



haha... i cant smile @ all =x



the in-house interns!! haha... there is also overseas interns like me... who end their internship earlier and stuck in sch! haha... its such a fun time... (too bad the pics are missing some ppl)



ooh! haha... figure out tis drawing for ursel! :)
cant say its who and who... lalala~~ and u wont believe the artist is who...



last but nt least... finally celebrated crystal and nich be, be, be lated birthday... haha... though it didnt go according to plan... the plan B still rock... haha....




finish with the photos... time for me to emo again... haha...
blogging help to release the emotions tat i cant show in reality... i sometimes really do wonder how come i am such a odd person... but ooh well... i am odd... haha...


its very nice to hear about stories from frens bout their life and how they have move so much and so far within such a period... deep down... i sometimes wonder... how come i am still stuck @ tis particular stage of my life...

maybe is my unwillness to step out of my comfort zone... excuses and reasons seem to run out after everytime i confront with myself... for now... music have help me to tide over the emotional strains... but for how much longer? i dun think i will ever know...


even though i feel so naked exposing myself here... @ least when i am older, i could look back on how i felt last time... and be contented with whatever my future life holds... haha... tats the purpose of a blog right? to record the experiences... good or bad... just like photos...


last but not least... for my future self reading tis post...

nothing can be worst than now, stuck @ a point...
so ya...


suddenly feel so old... =x