when i have time, i am going to...

~make a nice cup of coffee and enjoy the night scenery...
~take out a nice story book and get memorized in the plot
~sit down and take my own sweet time to think and complete my major project
~tidy my room
~do some physical exercise
~call up a few of my frenz for meals and outing
~find a job in a nice and peaceful cafe
~take a camera and a open heart to some ulu place to shoot pictures

what happens now is...

~make 3 in 1 coffee to stay focus when working at night
~read through loads of chim books for some information regarding my major project
~make use of every min standing/bathing/waiting for bus to try to make up stuffs to fill up my major project
~throw everything around first... its easily to take if everything is sorted into piles on the floor =x
~did alot of mental exercise... body nt tired but brain is toasted
~if frenz call will try to make time... if nt...
~find a job tat can earn alot in a short period of time
~take a camera to record whatever i am doing for the project


tats my stupid life... nt forgetting... clocking in @ 830am and clocking out @ 6pm every single day regardless of rain/shine/traffic jam... haha... time is nt on my side... at least nt while i can help to stop myself from retaining for 1 extra sem...


to some... a pic could remind them of alot of memories... for me... all it takes is a representative song... and the memories will be release... its so irritating...

finally a blogging done @ night... rush to teach tution early mornin!!! haha... hmmmmm... i have to say its nt easy taking care of a group of ppl... guess i still need some polishing to be done! haha... self discipline is something i think i seriously lack and need to cultivate! haha... ooh! nt to forget hunger... today juz got a 30min lesson on hunger... and y isit impt... haha...


ooh... tat stupid jeeonn psycho me till i dream of a very very very lovely stupid interesting dream... ahhhhhh... see la... 12 sept, mid autumn performance is so very "looking" forward to... haha...


before i go... nt tat i am copying anyone style... but this is seriously very the funny~!!!


A SPANISH Teacher was explaining to her class that in Spanish, unlike
English, nouns are designated as either masculine or feminine.

'House' for instance, is feminine: 'la casa.'
'Pencil,' however, is masculine: 'el lapiz.'

A student asked, 'What gender is 'computer'?'

Instead of giving the answer, the teacher split the class into two
groups, male and female, and asked them to decide for themselves whether
computer' should be a masculine or a feminine noun. Each group was asked
to give four reasons for its recommendation.

The men's group decided that 'computer' should definitely be of the
feminine gender ('la computadora'), because:

1. No one but their creator understands their internal logic;

2. The native language they use to communicate with other computers is
incomprehensible to everyone else;

3. Even the smallest mistakes are stored in long term memory for possible
later retrieval; and

4. As soon as you make a commitment to one, you find yourself
spending half your paycheck on accessories for it.

(THIS GETS BETTER!)

The women's group, however, concluded that computers should be Masculine
('el computador'), because:

1. In order to do anything with them, you have to turn them on;

2. They have a lot of data but still can't think for themselves;

3. They are supposed to help you solve problems, but half the time they
ARE the problem; and

4. As soon as you commit to one, you realize that if you had waited a
little longer, you could have gotten a better model.

I AM DEAD!


juz realise how much more time i had, and how much more stuffs i gotta do! =x its freaking alot of stuffs to complete! i hate myself for being so last minute everytime!!! no more red alert/chinese chess/surfing net!!!

who to blame? but myself? haha...


juz realise no matter how impt a person is/was, there is never anyone in the world tat could be irreplaceable! coz the world is round and spin irregardless of what happens on it! :)

i had the weirdest dream ever!

although its kind of scary, a part of me wish tat it would juz come true!


ooh gosh! i am late! blog again in sch =x

haha... weeeeeeee!!! its wed!!! 3 more days to weekend... haha... gonna be another boring weekend! LOL!


tell me life is "fun" haha... feel like finding some part-time job to kill time and to increase income to increase my expenditure! =x haha... tell me i am a spoilt brat! who dun save for rainy days...
gosh!


i feel so stupid @ times... saying wat i dun meant... and bear the consequences... haha... its me i suppose, scared to fall into a bottomless pit! yet... a small part of me feel like juz jump down and think later! haha... rainy day... high ceiling lab... emo songs... juz drag tat emo me out instantly =.- ooh ooh... forget to say... my left eyelid is double while my right eyelid is single... wat does that meant?


maybe i haven be very sure of what i really want and at wat price =x

RESPONSIBILITY



a long word wif a huge meaning... responsibility cames in many different forms... and according to the website after a quick search,

- duty: the social force that binds you to the courses of action demanded by that force; "we must instill a sense of duty in our children"; "every ...
- province: the proper sphere or extent of your activities; "it was his province to take care of himself"
- a form of trustworthiness; the trait of being answerable to someone for something or being responsible for one's conduct; "he holds a position of great responsibility"
wordnet.princeton.edu/perl/webwn

-The state of being responsible, accountable, or answerable; A duty, obligation or liability for which someone is responsible or accountable; The obligation to carry forward an assigned task to a successful conclusion. ...
en.wiktionary.org/wiki/responsibility


anyways... been thinking for a very long time... shld i burden myself with more responsibility... yesterday, when having dinner with two frenz, although i feel abit too bright.. yet they make me kinda envious... for a moment... i wished... haha... but after a night of thoughts... one quote surface... "with great power comes great responsibility" so i wonder...


kkz... i am so late!!! gotta run!!! update again tml!!

its TUESDAY! its a day whereby butterfly are release! haha...


wanna type something chim today... but brain has no idea... so... no chim stuffs!! =x


keke... going for dental appointment later! my lecturer is actually so kind to allow me to leave early... haha... nt a bad start sia... :P i learnt a cruel fact! at work... juz follow ur "rank"!! haha... the higher "ranks" are suppose to give order... and the lower "rank" juz need to follow... right or wrong doesnt matter, juz follow... tis kinda "law" helps to keep everything in order... but does it really helps to progress? its true tat to "upgrade ur rank" experience and material gotta be shown... but does a "higher rank" really means there are no mistake, juz like a pre-programmed robot? but even those kinda robot will also make errors... hmmmmmm... a thought to ponder about i suppose... juz some observation i made tis yr...


time for sch.... weeeeeeeee.... hmmmmm... chocolate fondue and and free treat? LOL!

GD MORNIN!


how i finally noe y am i tired! i didnt get quality sleep!!!
haha... was very very unstable before i slept... and after i woke, all the solutions came like instantly... guess i muz have been thinking while sleeping =x


haha... i realise what my lao pa, aka nic say was very true... i shld take every step and every mistake as a lesson learnt rather than thinking of what might come out if... coz past is past, there is no way to change the decision i made... so might as well ensure that the future decision is made more carefully...


haha... so emo early mornin...

can u see wat i saw? if u could... pls whisper it to me.. maybe... probably... really?

even the most successful clown also could not be able to make one person smile...
that will be himself...


its funny how its so very easy to cheer people up... and the last person u expecting to cheer up would be urself... juz like how a best doctor could not be able to cure his own illness.. for a moment i feel like i wanna burst!


anyway... tried on something i have been dreaming bout! a cocktail/shot named "sex on the beach" the shot taste nicer... but prefer the glass one... haha... weeeeeee.... finally i could rest well... LOL! after the drinks, watch 12 lotus wif jim,kev and weik... as we watch the 1am show... the cinema only have 7 ppl including us... so relaxing la... u could see almost all the ppl in the theater lift their feet on the top of the next row chair and nt worrying bout disturbing other ppl... LOL! anyway... back to the movie... its pretty abstract, pretty theater... pretty emo!


a quote which i learnt from the movie...

no love without pain, no pain without love

nice lyrics... it takes a lifetime to understand... yet, i dun wanna to! =x
cant find any english translation... tried to translate myself... halfway translating.. think my translation is CMI so stoped... anyway... to those who can read chinese... it really gives a pang! haha...

第一可怜罗莲花,出生风场昧快活,凄惨落泊就是我,做牛做马也得拖!

第二可怜莲花酸,苦命莲花心头酸,后母无为仔打算,想要嫁人也久长,可怜呀莲花呀,实在可怜代!

第三可怜莲花姐,坏命做工到半暝,头烧目晕那是病,破病也得去赚钱!

第四可怜莲花代,好坏人客阮招待,十分招待嫌阮坏,要打要骂又要赶,可怜呀莲花呀,实在可怜代!

第五可怜莲花种,有人实在无同情,也无外多钱阮用,要打要骂又要钟!

第六可怜莲花城,流落欢场歹名声,后母爱钱无爱仔,迫到阮呀无路行!可怜呀莲花呀,实在可怜代!

第七可怜莲花红,阮是可怜歹命人,后母当阮不是人,害阮痛苦一世人!


第八可怜莲花头,流落欢场昧出头,后母顾前无顾后,害阮暝日目屎流,可怜呀莲花呀,实在可怜代!

第九可怜莲花时,做了这行已几年,可怜家人无相见,阮嘛不知企叨位!

第十可怜莲花光,归暝做工到天光,想到有厝唔汤返,终身再也难见光!可怜呀莲花呀实在可怜代!

十一可怜莲花怨,想到身世真哀怨,后母迫我做这款,越想心内越超烦,

十二莲花无了时,堕落黑暗难见天,少年赚钱是一时,老来怎样过日子,可怜呀莲花呀实在可怜代!

TGIF! (in-case u still figuring out... Thank God Its Friday)


keke... been sleeping very early for tis week... hoping that all my pimples are cleared =x 8~9pm then u could find me in lala land :P if u bother to find tat is... wahahahaha...


the quote of the day... "the world is round and extremely small"
haha... juz realise how small and how complicated ppl are... a fren of mine, could be a fren's fren of yours... or a fren of mine could be also a fren of yours, juz tat both of us dunno...


gosh... i am so late today!!! if i dun go... i think i will be very very very very late... so... CIAO!



keke... nth to do in the lab... so its cam-whoring time =x

gosh! i got the weirdest dream i ever had... eeek! hope it doesnt happen in real life or i am seriously gonna stress like dunno wat... =x


maybe the dream i had is teaching me something... and i shld really stop slacking so much! =x didnt really didnt any brain work for the whole month after i come back to SG frm China... coz the environment there is so slack!!! haha...


hmmmmmmm.... shld i really go Cambodia wif my lecturer, since i am already helping him doing the overseas community project... but going = more spending + 5 days disappear frm SG + tired (coz the next day after i return i am going china for my cousin wedding =x)


y does life have to be so rush!!! y does ppl have to be so rush!!! y cant i stay the same pace as i am!!! i need to stop using diesel and start pumping up on unleaded petrol!!! :P



hmmmmm... before i end, there is some interesting stuffs my fren send me... those who are nt as proficient in chinese like me, freak nt, there is an english translation above... but the chinese words are more *touching* haha...

小心讀每一個，再用一兩秒想一想

1. I love you not because of who you are, but because of who I am when I am with you.

我愛你不是因為你是誰，而是我在你面前可以是誰。


2. No man or woman is worth your tears, and the one who is, won't make you cry.

沒有男人或女人是值得你為他流眼淚，值得的那一位，不會要你哭。


3. Just because someone doesn't love you the way you want them to, doesn't mean they don't love you with all they have.

那人不是你所想般愛你，但不代表那人不是全心全意地愛你。


4. A true friend is someone who reaches for your hand and touches your heart.

一個真正的朋友是向著你伸手，觸動你心靈的人。


5. The worst way to miss someone is to be sitting right beside them knowing you can't have them.

掛念一個人最差的方式，就是你坐在他身旁，而知道你不能擁有他。


6. Never frown, even when you are sad, because you never know who is falling in love with your smile.

就算你不快樂也不要皺眉，因為你永不知道誰會愛上你的笑容。


7. To the world you may be one person, but to one person you may be the world.

在世界裡你可能只是某人，但對某人你可能是全世界。


8. Don't waste your time on a man/woman, who isn't willing to waste their time on you.

不要花時間在一個不會花時間在你身上的人。


9. Maybe God wants us to meet a few wrong people before meeting the right one, so that when

we finally meet the person, we will know how to be grateful.

可能神要我們在遇到那位對的人之前先遇上一些錯的人，讓我們遇到那位對先生/對小姐時懂得珍惜。


10. Don't cry because it is over, smile because it happened.

不要因為完結而哭，要為曾經發生而微笑。


11. There's always going to be people that hurt you so what you have to do is keep on trusting

and just be more careful about who you trust next time around.

這個世界永遠也會有一些傷害你的人，你要做的就是繼續去信人和小心你下次信的人。


12. Make yourself a better person and know who you are before you try and know someone else and expect them to know you.

在你嘗試了解其他人和盼望其他人明白你之前，先把你自己變成一個更好的人和了解你自己。


13. Don't try so hard, the best things come when you least expect them to.

不要太努力去找，最好的東西是在你最預計不到的時候出現。

its a lazy wednesday....


woke up @ 4.45am? and fall back to sleep again... =x
been sleeping pretty early for the past few days... sorry if i couldnt pick up calls or reply to msg... haha... got 3 miss call so far from 2 ppl... hmmmmmm... wonder whether the stats would rise? wahahahaha....

okie.. i am so random... so much for so far... i am seriously late for sch! =x

cyA!

becoming to start blogging early mornin! LOL!


coz i have been sleeping very early these few days... 8+~9pm each day? hoping to clear most of the pimples/acne on my face!! to get ready for tis weekend? haha... so dun pang seh me leh!!! if nt i will be very mad!! heehee


anyways... other than these crap, i think i finally noe wat i really want for my life, short/long term wise... even though i am juz like 19? but its kinda clear now... or shld i say very clear to me le... life is short... haha.. so... target locked... anchor set... full speed ahead! meanwhile... i guess its about time i do something to my dusty blog... gonna get some pic frm jon later @ sch... (hope he brings his lappy...) so watch out for my next few post ya? gonna be filled wif alot of camwhoring pic! which according to xavior, can make into a big big collage? =x

ITS SO GREAT!
i am awake early morning feeling so emo again...


juz realise how foolish i am... y am i even trying for something that is virtually impossible or shld i say reality impossible stuffs...


haha... i have to try and stop giving excuses to myself? i need to learn how to drift... nt an easy skill... haha...


anyways.. juz realise most of my close fren bds falls in august... being a proud and creative =/ person... i dun like to give the same stuffs for presents... thus... i need some idea!!! haha... maybe on my way to sch it will spring out! LOL! haha... tats all for now... tata! if nt i will be late for sch =x


ooh... juz a interesting comment before i go off... misses will appears more in one's heart than loves when it comes to loves! interesting ya? haha... and misses could be block wif loads and loads of work... :P

weeeeeeeeeeeeee! haha... watched money not enough 2! kinda interesting... nt as emo as someone told me... keke... nevertheless its nt bad la! wahahahaha...

but its so sad la! coz i wanted to treat someone to a advance bd present... tat someone juz dun wanna accept it... so sianz! == keke... i noe u will be reading tis... muhahahaha... so i purposely put in de! :P see la! now i need to crack up my brains, which doesnt have much left too...


haha... shldnt be feeling emo now... yet! it juz seem so... haha... y does it have to happen to me all the time... maybe its juz my luck... on the bright side, i dun have to bother so much now tat everything is quite nice!

ooh... before i forget... i sometime really wonder... sacrificing for ones love seem so stupid, yet alot of ppl does it... kinda funny... haha... ooh... and i read before in some books... "in love, its either a yes or no. no excuse needed" maybe i shld practice it sometime soon? :)


keke... and something i read bout
Have you ever wondered which hurts the most?
Saying something and wishing you hadn't?, or
Saying nothing and wishing you had?

I guess the most important things are the hardest things to say.Don't be afraid to tell someone you love them.
If you do, they might break your heart...if you don't, you might break theirs.


Have u ever decided not 2 become a couple because you were so afraid of losing what you already
had with that person?

Your heart decides whom it likes and whom it doesn't.
You can't tell your heart what to do. It does it on its own........when you least suspect it, or even when you don't want it to.

Have you ever wanted to love someone with everything you had, but that other person was too afraid to let you?

Too many of us stay walled up because we are too afraid to care too much...for fear that the other person does not
care as much, or even at all.

Have you ever denied your feelings for someone because your fear of rejection was too hard to handle?

We tell lies when we are afraid... afraid of what we
don't know, afraid of what others will think, afraid of what will be found out about us.
But every time we tell a lie, the thing we fear grows stronger.

Life is all about risks and it requires you to jump.

Don't be a person who has to look back and wonder what they would have done, or could have had.

* What would you do if every time you fell in love you had to say good-bye?

*What would you do if every time you wanted someone they would never be there?

*What would you do if your best friend died tomorrow and you never got to tell them how you felt? (even if it is that you don't care anymore)
*What would you do if you loved someone more than ever and you couldn't have them?
*What would you do if you never got the chance to say I am friends with all of my family and they know I love them?*


You might be best friends one year, pretty good friends the next year, don't talk that often the next, and don't want to talk at all the year after that.

So, I just wanted to say, even if I never talk to you again in my life, you are special to me and you have made a difference in my life,

Let old friends know you haven't forgotten them, and tell new friends you never will.

somebody out there cares about you and ........... always will..

I care about YOU !!

WAHAHAHA! i dun think i will be late today! :P


keke... its 630am now and i am blogging... amazing sia!
today is gonna be pretty interesting day... going little india to shop AGAIN! hope it dun rain today!! *pray pray*


i seriously need to kapo some photos from my fren soon... my blog is getting wordy without pics la!!! sianz sianz...

its seriously OSIM la... i was late for sch today!!! took a taxi down :(


ah ah ah... life seem so mundane these days... maybe i shld add some light, camera and action? haha... juz kidding... i will never get to tat extend!!! i juz dun get it y sometimes, some ppl (those tat i dun think will bother read my blog) is such drama king/queen/prince/princess... i agree that life is like a stage, but that doesnt meant that everyday gotta do some very extreme "moves"


juz some random comment... haha... i feel so nasty right now... maybe coz huang jin lun got out!! LOL!!! juz joking... haha... guess i shld sleep earlier... taxi fare are rising like hell!!!


ooh ooh... before i forget... its funny how weird when one convinces himself not to do something... and yet he did... not to feel something... yet he did... gosh! need a brain washing session soon!! any therapist available?

OSIM!!! (Oh Shit Its Monday)


yea... had an enjoyable weekend... :)
ate fabulous Dim Sum buffet @ an damn ulu place... haha... jalan around city area... found alot of places had changed... alot of places are no longer where they are... and i feel so dc with the frenz i used to hang around... kinda weird... maybe i am too over-sensitive... =x


time to find the new self? self renovate? wahahaha... maybe wat i need to renovate is not my physical self... but my mentally? haha...

how i wish i could juz forget forever and i could remain childish...


if not for consoling a fren, i would have never thought of all the advice that had showered upon me when i needed them... all those one hit KO advice, all those advice that made me grown up and stand... y cant i juz find a secluded place and hide forever? i love and hate responsibilities... many ppl (nt i bhb) concluded i had a gd sense of responsibilities, yet there is tis small part of me telling me to heck care bout everything and throw them aside and bring in the fun...


i really dunno myself at all... gosh... who could possibility see the inner me if i cant even see myself... shld i chunk the past aside or shld i juz pick them up and continue?

haha! in sch now!!! :)


suddenly addicted to a chinese and english song... the the lyrics is like so nice? haha...

its kinda old song la... (but i dun have the mp3 file) haha...

Listen - Beyonce Knowles

Listen,
To the song here in my heart
A melody I've start
But can't complete

Listen, to the sound from deep within
It's only beginning
To find release

Oh,
the time has come
for my dreams to be heard
They will not be pushed aside and turned
Into your own
all cause you won't
Listen....

[Chorus]
Listen,
I am alone at a crossroads
I'm not at home, in my own home
And I tried and tried
To say whats on my mind
You should have known
Oh,
Now I'm done believing you
You don't know what I'm feeling
I'm more than what, you made of me
I followed the voice
you gave to me
But now I gotta find, my own..

You should have listened
There is someone here inside
Someone I'd thought had died
So long ago

Ohh I'm free now and my dreams to be heard
They will not be pushed aside or worse
Into your own
All cause you won't
Listen...

[Chorus]

I don't know where I belong
But I'll be moving on
If you don't....
If you won't....

Listen!!!...
To the song here in my heart
A melody I've start
But I will complete

Oh,
Now I'm done believing you
You don't know what I'm feeling
I'm more than what, you made of me
I followed the voice, you think you gave to me
But now I gotta find, my own..
my ownn...

and 傻瓜 by 温岚

其实他做的坏事我们都懂
没有什么不同
眼光闪烁 暧昧流动
闭上眼当作听说

其实别人的招数我们都懂
没有什么不同
故作软弱 撒娇害羞
只是有一点别扭

傻瓜也许单纯地懂
爱得没那么做作
爱上了我不保留

傻瓜 我们都一样
被爱情伤了又伤
相信这个他不一样
却又再一次受伤

傻瓜 我们都一样
受了伤却不投降
相信付出会有代价
代价只是一句傻瓜

Going to china again! :)


haha... tis time is nt to beijing, but to Hai nan, not for work, juz for a joyous occasion?
coz apparently i have a cousin over there and he is going to have a wedding soon... :)
hehe... thx god there is still quite a few in the line before it is my turn... but wats wrong with being single? :P


haiz... been having a serious problem with STM these days... aka short term memory... dunno why, i juz cant rmb stuffs... i almost did alot of things twice and miss out on even more stuffs tat i am suppose to do =x gosh... am i really getting old? ahhhhhh... nOoooooooo!!!


ooh ooh... since i reckon that two person will be reading also...
to our dearest yl and tx... i really dun mind urall talking bout me lah... i means seriously, i dun mind... but pls har... dun disturb me when I AM DOING EXPERIMENT! :P
hehe... anyway... they are really two other great fren that i nOe + my roommate... 4 strangers living together for 2 mths will cause friction at times... yet... its the polished product that makes it such a wonderful trip! thx!! (dun cry har :P)

gosh!


why is life so complicating...

why cant it be abit more simple...
abit more easy to see...


if there is sometime that i regret, i regret not bothering about my surrounding...

JUST CHANGE MY BLOG SKIN :)


hmmmmm... dunno am i getting old or wat... my taste has been getting more and more... abstract? =x where is my youth!!! ahhhhh... anyway... i noe shld be studying now... but... i need to move on... as in... mentally...


its so long since i came back... yet i realise i am still hovering... as in mentally... nt feeling any security, juz hovering... it may sound just weird... ooh well...


isnt there anyone i can call in the middle of the night and just keep quiet... nt meant to scare or wat (since its the lunar 7th month) but to just know... haha... i noe its kinda weird coming out from a 173cm guy... still...
okie... i think its kinda weird if i continue typing so i gonna stop here...

tarot... here i come!

just when i thought all is right... i realise nth is really right...


its funny how only at times like this... i would suddenly feel the urge to take out my tarot set... yet... my logic is telling me not to depend on the deck too much... cant help feeling lost right now... lost my anchor point, juz drifting aimlessly now... i hate nt having a goal, but wat goal could i possibility set right now...


shld i juz do juz like wat i done in the past? it could put an end to tis short term misery... however it would juz make the long term misery worst... humans are strange creatures... aquarius are weirder humans... how i wish i could go back to a baby and start all over again... juz like playing games and pressing restart buttons...


gosh... i think i better start to sleep soon... hope work is able to numb me till next sat? =x
till then...

back to blogging?


haha... been doing attachment in temasek poly these few days... so kinda busy... haha... its funny how a familiar place could suddenly become so foreign in such a short amount of time...


i been thinking for quite a while... hmmmmmmm...