HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY BLOG!


time sure flys...

blink of an eye...


its been 1 yr...



1yr is not a long time...

neither is it short...



juz 1 yr... 1 more yr...



lets celebrate by down tis cup! :)
no prize for guessing the correct name!

What are blogs for?


entertainment? release of emotions? attraction? waste time?


funny thing is tat i only blog during i wanna release emotions... one of the few possible reason is that i could not express my sadness in reality... and surprising blogging helps me release the sadness in me... thought nt completely...


blog hopping brings joy... and sometimes, gives me a jolt... and help to pull me back in again...
how i wanna lead my life? hmmmmm... definitely not like TV shows... even if its very drama... its juz a private channel... open to close frenz and myself... but freak not... interesting life events will still be updated... healthly things are meant to be shared afterall! :)


back to emo-ing again i suppose.. this pic can really reflect my inner feelings...




and this could brighten it up... :)
*ARG! ate too much... sore throat now*

GD NEWS...

~starting from today, i will most likely, hopefully, finish my diploma in 2mths time...


BAD NEWS...

~sch is starting today... and its ending in 2 mths time... :(


gosh!!! another year is coming to an end pretty soon...

BUSY BUSY BUSY!


with new year coming along... lots of stuffs need to be done... shopping... cleaning room... meet frenz to catch up with... finding part time jobs to cover my expense for overseas trip wif two of my close fren whom i known for 7, going 8 yrs :P... and did i mention tat sch starting next
week -.=!

ooh... did i bother to mention tat projects will be release next week in hand with intense orchestra practise to prepare and rehearse for the upcoming open house performance *hint hint, go support* and annual concert @ victoria concert hall on the 27th march *if i rmb correctly*


weeeeeeeee! i dun really feel tat stress yet =x coz after so long... i am getting a new coat of paint for my room... when cleaning up my room.. i found alot of old stuffs... some juz left there... while others evoke different memories and feeling tat has been smear with time... lots went to the bin... sorry! but my room is kinda packed... but i decided to keep a few special items into a shoe box... shall nt say which...


the whole thing started in the morning... lazy to type it out... i shall let the pictures do most of the chatting... haha... time to show off some rubbish!

present my messy room...




some design i drew on the wall when i was younger... (stupid to draw free hand instead of using stanzer)




anOther view of my room...
its nt my leg...
its nt my leg...
its nt...
my leg!
haha...




towards the door... nOte how messy it is... haha...




by chance.. found tis long lost card... wOots!




and nt forgetting the pro sch class photo... can u spot me? lalala~




here is a more obvious sec sch photo for u to spot me! :D




some signature... wondering how most of them are doing...




can u believe it? the pail/bin is actually older than me!!!
by 2 yrs... haha!!!




when i was a boy...




bought wif my red packet money... note... $169 for 256mb!!! =.-
kinda think of it... how my heart breaks!




some odd clay models i found in my room!




my 18th bd present to myself... used to be 3 mask... left wif one... going to use it soon!! haha...




sec 3 camp :D




look how worn out the book was... juz like me tat time...




some concerts i attended... which left me memorises... and ashame of my lowly cannot make it skills...




a cute concert tat i dun think i can forget!!!




ooh... the first and so far the only play i watch @ the esplanade... it surely brings back memories... LOL!




somehow... it seem to appear in the pile of books... weird...




my mic which is spoilt... maybe i sing too much to it... and it decided to quit after listening to me and sense no potential...




the first few bills i paid to after started working... yup! i can proudly say i own my phone :D




ooh... i couldn't bare to throw it away... but i seriously got no space for it... a "group" bag my sec clique fren bought together right after we graduated... we wanted to bring out together but no chance... and the "handle" snap!!! :(

lets buy another bag together k? :)




though i know its useless to keep it anymore... its still in my corner of my room... as a reminder? caution sign? haha...




something i folded but didnt manage to sneak it somewhere...




too cute!!! though i no longer use it... i still keep it in a dust free environment :)




a complete set!




kkz... tats all for the day... check back tml or maybe the day after next for the new room! :)

many merry christmas!!!


haha... tis christmas was fun and enjoyable for me! went to orchard on the eve then rush down to wanling house then took a bus back... and now going out again! :)


ooh... i start to love red wine too!!!
coz its sweet! :)

guess wat?


with school starting... my shopping are nt even half done can!
ARG!


*prays*

I finally get it...


i cant believe tat i neglected myself so much tat i actually kinda regret it now... time to work it out!


daily frustration is important for long term goal...

1...
2...
1...
2...


here i come! haha...

today is my mum bd...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUM! U ARE OFFICIALLY... *zips*
haha... anyone wanna guess wats her age?





no prize for guessing it correct!

nt tat i been busy/too slacky...


juz dun feel like updating my blog these few days! coz i am nt tat emo!!! haha...
since last fri to today, every day was fun filled and exciting... simply too lazy to go indepth on wats going behind the scene... basically...


1. I went to 2 concert... beautiful sunday @ the esplanade and Symphony of Amour - NYPCO concert... both concert help me to appreciate music at a deeper level... as i am nt really gd, i dun really dare to comment much bout the performance... juz tat i feel slight disappointment frm NYPCO concert as i seen their splendid performance last yr... cant blame them too... last yr one was really a memorizing performance, tat makes one thinks whether isit really possible to achieve tat standard!


2. Gossip girl was damn addictive! been trying to catch it whenever i have the time to... :)


3. I decided to UPGRADE myself... it has been a while since i last pick up a gd book to read... with an open and determine mind, i am so gonna start reading again... any books to recommend?


4. Shopping is a utmost concern to me right now... with the lunar new year coming close i am desperate to buy new clothes before sch starts... so far... i bought one brown shirt with jim after walking for a few hours... with the remaining 9 days i need to find one more shirt, pants and a gd pair of shoes... as i have a bad feeling once sch starts... i wun have time to shop... so... anyone wanna shop too? lets turn the shop upside down!


on the lighter note.. some pics for entertainment! :P
























emo haohao surface again... and he wish for a heavy rain outside... so he can talk a scroll in the rain...

GOT sick of me yet?


haha... been blogging alot these few days... guess... its juz one of the post exam de-stress symptoms... wahahahaha....


FUN FILLED DAY 3, HERE I COME!!!


did i mentioned tat i am late for the day le! =x
yeeks~

BEAUTIFUL SUNDAY!


thought its been raining the whole day! its didnt really dampen my moods for a FUN FILLED DAY! :)

went to watch beautiful sunday @ esplanade with pauline, wen hui and wan ling! haha... where was this ruan concert... i would not say its damn nice... but the woodwind section was way zai as compare to me... guess i shld practise more on my dizhi...

after which, we went around esplanade to ja lan, ja lan... afew of my stun expression pictures... hmmmmm.... contacts too dry i suppose =x










then went out wif a fabian to ja lan, ja lan again... saw a few pairs of shoes... but nth caught my interest! ARG! shoes shoes shoes... where are u!

but saw some shirts and interesting items on the way in search for his thumber... nt sure whether its spelled like tat...


end of an FUN FILLED DAY NUMBER 2!

nice lyrics catches my attention...




tml is going to be another fun filled day!
i hope :)

hmmmmmm...


sometimes i really hate myself... i been packing my room since afternoon... and after 5 hours... i am juz close to half way done... ARG!


old stuffs are meant to disappear to make way for new stuffs... yet... it brings so many memories... happy/sad/pleasant/awful...


stagnation seem to love me even though i tried moving on... it seem like a spiral maze... never ends... never stops... hysterical...


emo haohao is controlling his emotions...

drinks are no longer effective...
music are no longer useful...
shows are no longer distraction...

maybe i need some more fondue...
:)

101% ENJOYMENT!!


its a fun fun fun day!!
singing, looking exhibition, dancing, knowing new frenz....

so much to write... dunnno where to start...

guess i shall go sleep first :)

frm the being guided... becomes providing guidance.. gosh!


i am getting old!!! 20 is juz a stone throw away frm me...
wat next? 21? =x


life is full of karma... tats wat i could say... and i need start doing some good deeds to overwrite all the bad karma of mine! LOL!!!


ooh ooh... my exam is over! :)
time to go relax... :)

FINALLY ITS HERE!


last paper... last shot...

juz like life... no matter how many shots u pull... there gotta be a limit... 3 strike out are you are out! :)
reminiscing out my secondary sch life... cant believe i was actually playing softball back then... (trying to forget how lousy i was @ the game)


anyways...
its time to relax and enjoy for awhile before heading back into studies... so...


SHOVE THOSE BOOKS ASIDE AND ITS PARTY TIME! :)

THIRD POST FOR TODAY!


its a blogging day.... haha...

juz like to say.. ONE MORE PAPER, ONE MORE DAY!
haha... after tml... shall be a break till sch reopen next yr?
outings... meetings... makanings... gossiping catching ups!!!


ooh... i am so into E.S posthums...
click to find out y :P

thinking...


dreaming...


thinking...





wondering wats happening to me...


haohao is so confused tat he juz did blogging in sch...

PANNIC ATTACK!!!


haha... 6more hrs to my mid sem test... yet i haven really study for it... great! to think i was like hoping to Ace my last sem... so all it come down to this... ooh well... who to blame? haha... been juz too slacky...


anyways... its mid week!!! and my mid sem test is finishing tml... so... I AM FREE!!! :)

its 7am~! and my first paper starts @ 9am...
time to get ready and squeeze onto bus 27~!!


ANYONE TO COLOUR MY LIFE?
tired of living in gray scale...

such a nice slogan tat i randomly though up of in midst of been stress tat i haven really study through my notes... coz its a open book one... who to blame but myself... noe i got no idea behind the theory... hopefully... i can pull through this test... FYI... the last quiz on this module... i got a pathetic single digit mark less than 5... i kinda dislike this module... yet love it @ the same time... :)


kkz... time to go or risk being banned for being late =x

its been a rainy day...


slacking @ home... the notes for tml term test module is right beside me now... yet i got no mood to flip them... goodness... i shld start praying soon to the gods and hopefully i can pass tml term test? haha...


life is so funny... maybe nt everyone's... but i am quite sure mine is damn funny... colourful life... juz like my new blog skin, in case u haven noticed... i changed it :)


snap shots of my life are getting lesser and lesser... gotta find one of these days and start cam-whoring... dun worry... it wun be too much of my face... maybe 90/100 pics taken? hey... its nt like 100/100 :P
HAHA!

cant seem to find the correct blogskin... ARG!


anyways... meeting old frens are very nice... helps to bring the old me back into action... though once a blue moon meet up brightens my day... muz meet up more often k? haha...


the sky is threatening...

its seem to be a stormy night =x

in midst of preparing for the upcoming term test... i am there blogging... cleaning my room... watching youtube... enjoying the music... dun seem to have a "kan chiong" feeling... guess i given up hope tat i can score well =x haha... i dunno y... cant seem to get "kan chiong" de... too happy go lucky i guess...


well... i decided to design a new blog skin... like FINALLY! haha... but i haven got any inspiration... all colours seem dull to me... bnw (black and white) seem so uninteresting... simplicity seem so plain... complicated seem so boring... cute seem so fake... maturity seem so laughable... lines seem so separated... curves seem so messy...


okie... i am utterly... simply... bored!


ENTERTAIN ME!


now... tat sound so bitchy...


CRAVE FOR SOME EMOTIONS...


yet... nth is left...


I HATE THIS PART!


a nice song by pussycat dolls...


MONEY...


something tat i am destine nt to keep...



okie... enough of randomness in my blog...
continue scrolling my music list to find entertainment...

i am so stupid to do blog reading... and realise that its been a long time since i did some colorgenices... after reading the analysis... its juz like spears piercing @ the correct spot in my heart... and now the heart is aching and cracking... and dun feel like doing anything at all...


COZ I AM EMO!



@ times i really wonder y isit so true...
You are trying to evade your problems and difficulties and tensions by 'leaping before you look'. This could be construed as a 'panic' situation and panic is an irrational fear - 'loss of control'. You are desperately seeking a way out of it all and because of any headstrong decisions that you may be making this could lead to an extremely dangerous situation. Slow down - matters seem to find a way of resolving themselves. Without sounding complacent remember that 'all's well that ends well'.

Everything seems to be going against you at this time. Try as you may you are meeting with considerable resistance at every turn. Nothing is going as you would plan. The situation is difficult and you are trying to persist in your objectives against resistance. It would appear that you are being very secretive about your future plans just in case people around you try to thwart you.

It's the time of year that you are apt to become extremely restless and emotionally withdrawn. This is preventing you from becoming deeply involved with a person or persons within your sphere of influence. If you are willing to 'let go' and release your inhibitions you will find that a great deal of physical satisfaction will result, far more than perhaps you even believed you were capable of.

The stress and tension that you are experiencing at this time is perhaps due to your inability to achieve security and appreciation from those closest to you. This is resulting in considerable pressures. You find the situation as it stands most frustrating. You are the sort of person that would like to experience all and everything very intensely but unfortunately you are not receiving the warmth and understanding that you feel you are entitled to. Matters are not going too well. You seek a sympathetic ear but it is not forthcoming. This situation is extremely nerve-racking - and what is more humiliating is that no-one seems to care and you are powerless to do anything about it.

Perhaps in the distant past your trust and belief in your fellow man was misplaced and you can now no longer accept anything as it appears to be. You are untrusting and you insist that before you commit yourself to anything, you examine the pro's and con's with critical discrimination. The situation has now progressed to one where you are apt to disagree yet not make any form of constructive criticism to every suggestion that may be put to you. As a result you are in limbo. There is a saying that goes 'The past does not equal tomorrow'. Think about it - and let go.

ooh ooh! went for dinner last nite....


its been sometime since i feast @ MOF... and finally i gotta use a complimentary tea coupon for the first time... the tea is kinda small but cute... and i ordered another set... so, i still have a complimentary tea coupon in my wallet... haha... i miss eating water melon kakigori? haha... lots of memories...


and guess wat... in 25 more days... my blog is going to be 1yrs old! haha...
and in 53 days... i am going to exit my teen age and step into 20's stage... gosh... everything is happening so fast... who noes... 30's is just around the corner... eeeeeek!


juz a random comment... been listening to 91.3 fm... kinda funny... kinda lame... kinda cute... wondering when will be my turn... :(

ooh...
and i regret cutting my hair... now its so stupid looking... and my holidays are here only for 2 weeks!!! :(

TODAY IS THE LAST DAY OF SCH!
for year 08...

though i will still be going back school for exams and Chinese orchestra practices after exam... today is the last day of school for this yr whereby i go back sch juz to learn academic stuffs... excited? haha... its been a dull yr...

2008... is nth compare with 2007... still... i made great frenz... i was in china for 1/6 of the yr, shuttle to and fro jurong island for 1/12 of the yr and having orchestra practise with studies the rest of the time... believe it or nt... i lost my life in terms of going out shopping... but i forged bonds and made great frenz i never forget... 19... hopefully the friendships will last chang chang jiu jiu! :)


one of tis days... i gotta post the pictures i took for tis yr... so... keep a lookout! u might see ur face too :)

evening shower...


two views...
its a nice shower to lower the weather...
makes the route home so wet and soggy...


its up to u to choose... nth wrong with either...
:)

arG!


diarrhea + feeling dizzy...
how i wish the project report was not with me...
then i can take an MC and skip sch...
feeling so so so sianz...


y does a mornin gotta start like tat...
such a cold and comfortable weather to sleep in... and forget all the troubles...


time to get going... another info overloading week... here i come! :)