its not surprising to find very different personality in one person...

when my MP3 is still around, its my personality determining factor...
now its the specs i wore... strangely true...


could be due to the events happening when i wore them, i suddenly realise now, with different spec, i act differently...

due to the strict nature in army, my Black spec tends to show the introvert side of me... as much as i would love to show myself to the world, the black spec reminds me of the nature of humans, it makes me be less of myself and more of another cover... a false cover to hide myself in... no one can noes who i am...


as the lime green with black frame spec was frequently worn while i juz came back from internship, its my low confident and nerdy spec... typically worn when i dun wanna dress up and juz feel like hiding in some areas... away from people... juz be in my own world...


Red frame spec tends to allow me to be more expressive and show much more of myself to people... i guess could be while i wore tat spec, i was frequently ask to do presentation and interact with people... thus whenever i wore those red spec, i feel more extrovert and more likely to express my bubbly side :D


last but not least... my contacts! :D
contacts makes me more confident... could be tat lack of a lens, i could give more electricity :D
haha... as i only wore contacts on special occassion or while work, it juz gives out my confident side... another cover that i use while i am nt really comfortable with the situation...



so dun be surprise if u met the other side of me :P

day off is finally nt wasted! :D

Went to watch BandSlam yesterday and the Proposal today!
two movies in a week! its been a long time since it happen! :)

Bandslam was kinda typical music movie! nt wanting to give too much spoiler, its about how events that happen to a person who hold these values so high will change due to the results... its very true how much one will change due to the situation that they are faced with... scared, lost, small....

so small...

the Proposal on the other hand is more of a comedy? haha... but it teach me tat we shld pay more attention to the people around us... and... work is not what life can provide for us... there is still alot of small details for us to look out for...


dun really recommend this two movies... waiting for a really gd movie to be release...

Interesting mth has juz pass...


lots of events and i would juz say tat the world is damn small :)
people seem connected in someway or the other...

2mths into the job... still feeling optimistic... i wonder how long more before i start to feel wat my seniors felt...


not studying anymore... finally chosen a easy path... studies shall wait... and wait and wait... LOL!


looking forward to the outdoor activities! sun and moon here i come! :P
i hope...

STUCK AT A MAJOR CROSS ROAD...


juz when i was slacking my time away due to my day off, seem like the gods arent happy... thus they struck me down with a letter of acceptance from PSB for my psychology course... not that acceptance is bad and that i am complaining when there might be others who cant get in... its juz that all gd things seem to come in a bundle... so big a bundle that its hard to squeeze all into a 24hr time frame to enjoy them...


most impt... the course arent cheap and short... 33k (after exemption of a subject) over 4yrs is quite a commitment for a nsf earning 420 bucks (before deduction) a mth... not that i am going to pay for the course as there are such things called parents sponsors, but after my poly sch fees, i cant really expect them to fork out so much money...


going to be 21 soon, in less than 6mths, i arent young afterall... so much things to complete before i turn old... older... oldest...


car license, degree and many others are commitments that i need to really sort out before the time is up... or is the time already over...

its been a very slacky LONG BREAK FROM WORK! :D


everything is falling in place so nicely...


UNPLUGGED...


thats what happen when i lost my earpiece to plug into my mp3 phone...

life use to be indulge in the music world whenever i travel... high volume ensured tat i wun be disturb by the surrounding, everything is so perfect in my music world... with the emotions on my face is a mirror to the songs i listen.. a sudden jump of joy to anger to sadness to excitment with the change of tracks arent surprising... maybe tat is y from the corner of my eyes i could sense stares... but it doesnt really bother me much... music is all i need...


naked is what i felt when i lost my ear piece... no more music to shelter me from the realistic world when i travel... woman gossips, child whining, students chattering and uncle coughs filled with threats to spit makes traveling very uneasy at first... however slowly it made me more aware of my surrounding... gossips slowly turns to concern questions, whining became to giggling, chattering evolves to friendly debates and coughs transform to small talks... then i realise... listening is very impt...

suddenly feel so out of time... with national day juz around the corner... only juz 5 mins ago then i listen to this yr national day theme song... gosh! i am such a lagger...


anyways... my boss are leaving :( ... hopefully the new one that comes in could be as encouraging and as helpful as the current one... haiz... y does fairy tale gotta have an end...

Urge to blog today... haha... dunno y...

i really do admit that army zaps away my money and more so time tat i could actually forget some of my very close frenz bd... haiz... how am i suppose to change from a workaholic to a BALANCE person...


With driving practicals, duties, and probably studies coming into the pic... i seriously doubt i can cope... i feel so bad to neglect my frenz and some people in my life... Maybe i shld get more organise... like really more organise...



juz some annoyed rantings i have for myself...
feeling like an annoyed old man these days...
opps...
but 21 is really around the corner...
:(